I am not perfect but i don’t say i am behind. I did all my best to be successful in my life and in my career. I become always happy with my career and can still work with under pressure. My boss  take me to the advance level of  position. I can say i am successful when it comes to my career, But what I don’t understand how something so much fun and beautiful turns to pain and sadness. How he was chasing me in the beginning and now that has disappeared. All these years in my family life and other dating relationships I have been the giver totally and the romantic one. But in the beginning it always starts with them chasing me and being romantic and doing nice things for me and all in vain. It is so engraved in me to be giving and give that it probably ended my relationship because I got tired of giving and giving, loving and loving but still for once and for all i am being ignored and neglected. I hate myself to be always the giver. I need to be loved truly.